My eyes are swollen.And i cant sleep.
And i know tml it could not be open.
OH MY GOD!

Til now,i cant sleep.
And is for days.
I dont feel like eating.Why?
And what i want to say is:SLUT,PLEASE GET OFF MY LIFE!
You know who you are and you are just shameless!
Soon you will feel how i feel now cause god is fair.BELIEVE ME.
Look in the mirror please,and you will see your fucking face!
Oh my god,is really scary !
Ruin people family is a sin!A sin may happen in your life.
I will THANKS GOD!And a million thanks.
And i repeat myself again,Fuck off and please go to hell.
The door is open for you...!And bye slut!

Finally I have trim my eyebrow.
Yeah.!

My everything.

My precious.

No more lie's please.
Fuck off my life and go to hell now PLEASE.
I am sick and tired of YOU.
Chance and chance was given but you just don't appreciate.
Thats the end!
I want to be my ownself.
I need a puff!
I want to get myself high!

bye fuckers

A chance and thats all.Not again.
And i really hope is a misunderstanding as you said.
Cause i really love you.I Swear and is a promise.
Trust,confident,words =love.
A father,a mother,child=family.
And i love my family.So do you?
Hope everythings go smooth for us ok?
And sorry for the anger i've put on you.
Perhaps this is what will happen whenever the happiness come.
God please bless and thanks for all.

Went to jog yesterday and today.
6am again.
And this is what I need,to forget all.
Please.Please.Please.
Fermanda is my all.Nothing else.
And guess what?
She pee on me this morning.Is hot and fresh!
Haha..!

Alright,bad mood.Nothing much to write.

bye.

And I will be rotting at home.Til the ants come and carry me.
Thank you my dear ants.

Can't get to sleep yesterday,confusing.
My mind was thinking this and that.
Can I stop all this ,please?
What can I do?What else can I do?
Let it be?
Oh my god,I'm going crazy.And soon.

At the most needed time,you leave.
I'm feeling pain.
Nothing else but,pain.
I need a puff.I need a shake.
Let the unhappyness go.Please.
I really need a break.
There's no turning back.
And bye.

I'm feeling moody.
I'm feeling unhappy.
I'm feeling weird.
Is no longer that strong.
Please don't ask me why.
I really don't know why.
Is all because of the times?
That change the life?
Please tell me why.
I want to be like last time.

Finally i'm done with my blog.
Tired..and i need to rest now.
zai jian.

Can anyone tell me when can i slim down?Please.
I want to trim my eyebrow.six month+ i never trim.can you imagine?
I want to cut my hair. Is thick.
I want to rebond my hair. Is so messy,like a scb.
I want to colour my hair. Is too black,like charcoal.
I want to buy new clothes. But i'm too fat now.
I want to club. But my face cant make it now.
I want to go holiday with you. Where's my honeymoon?
I want Fermanda to be my side all long. Can i?
I want your love please.
I want everything to be done.Can i?

I miss my hubby.Where are you?

Damn tired!
Woke up 6am and go jogging with aunt again!
After jog,go play pickle ball with dad and aunt.
Til about 9++ then back home.
Hab my late breakfast,and i'm feeling sleepy right now.
I walk like a robot as everywhere is feel with pain.
But i still can take it,keep it up!

Yesterday Karen came with her Kayden and her mum.
After that huixin came too.
Thanks for the gifts ya :) And is so happening.
I mean the noise.HAHAHA!
webcaming with hubby.
Show him Fermanda,our princess!
Cute Cute Cute!

Tomorrow going to help her do passport all that.
Have to wake up early again.
And i guess is a tiring trip.
Tonight gonna sleep early,can i?
I need more sleep please.
But mum say after exercise cannot sleep,if not = 0 . True ?

Alright.today woke up damn early.6am
Went for jogging with aunt and ah boy(his son).
Ends our exercise at 7.30am,took a rest then have my breakfast.
Accompany mum to market,when back home,took a nap.
Woke up at 11++..And i found...
My leg is fucking pain now.And i think is gonna last for few days.
But i'm going again tml.HAHA.
Evening going to play pickle ball with dad!
Never play before but i think is fun.
Fermanda got my mum to take care and i'm more free!
But i still help mum a little!

Hate hate hate you.
You change,and i will change soon!

I have nothing,but Fermanda.
Yes,she is my Everything!

Your love seem to have change?
Or perhaps i think too much?
I need care and love from you.
Please turn it back,i just miss it.

Woke up late today,11++ .And have a late breakfast.
Did not had a good sleep yesterday as Fermanda keep crying in the night.
Think she was shock cause lot of pple came visiting her.
Actually today going to help her do passport today,but ALL of us r so tired.
So going on monday instead.
Mum is sick.Hope she can recover soon ya!
And finally confinement is over!
Need to start my diet and exercise tml.
If not when i get back to penang,they will have a big laugh!
LOL.
We have a good gossip yesterday!
But lack of one stupid huixin!
Oopss!Thanks again for coming and the gifts!
Shall meet my girls again before i go back to penang!

Fermanda is so cute ya?

Miss hubby ya.

I need to start exercising.
I need to start keeping myself like a 21 years old.
Wad do you think?
Hubby please give me money.Hahaha..!

Dance with me.

Alright,is been a longtime i have not been blogging.
I want to shout out many thing but i'm super lazy.
Cause i'm hungry right now :( No choice,have to wait til night time then got food.
Mum and grandma is busy preparing food right now.I'm free!
Hai!Look into the mirror and i'm so sad about it.
My face,my body,my everything CHANGE.
Super sad!
I have a very round face now.
I have big tummy now.
I have a big butt now.
I have bad complexion now.
And wad else do i have?
All just Big!
But i have a thick blacky long hair.Do you have huh?Hahaha!

Giving birth is not easy.I SWEAR!
A pain that you never had before.A pain that you will never forget.
Now then i know why my mother is so nagging.And now is my turn.
Haha,seeing Little Fermnda smile,my heart is so sweet!
She is really a 'little girl'.
When she born,she is just 1.82kg.
And she stay at hospital for 19days cause she is underweight!
Release from hospital at 2.06kg.
In the period of waiting her home is really meaningless and worried.
We only can wait wait wait.
But everything is fine now and she is already 1 month!
Time really past fast.Time is really precious.
I treasure,so do you?

Recently had some quarrel with you.
I'm feeling cold,but you say no.
You make me think and you say nothing.
I hope our love is loving but is seem to be going.
Should i believe myself or you?
I think i should stop thinking too much if not i will get crazy!
Hahaha.

I already book the flight for back to penang.
On the 15th of march,night.
So i shall meet my girls and have a gathering?LOL.
Everyone is busy with their life.So do i?

Shall stop here.My eye is tired.
Tonight my house will be pack again.270 girls is coming..!
Welcome welcome!

Lets gossip tonight.

I will see my girls tml!
And they will see my big round face!
Hahaha!

1 more week to finish my confinement!
And 1 more week to wash my hair and have a clean bath!
Haha,can u imagine 1 month never wash hair?(Is really shinny.)
Fermanda is going to be 1 month old..!